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Feeling Helpless

I am feeling helpless. Like many others I am frightened by the actions of the White House after only 1 month of this administration. I am trying to figure out what I can do. Today, I also learned that a good friend of mine who suffered a traumatic brain injury a few months ago will likely pass away within the next day or so. Today, I can only try to be intentional with everything I do. Feeling the sadness, feeling helpless and sharing thoughts and feelings in writing.

This weekend I was enrolled in the online offering of a Haiku & Poetry program with Upaya Zen Center in Santa Fe, New Mexico. On the panel were Roshi Joan Halifax, Sensei Kaz Tanahashi, Jimmy Santiago Baca, Jane Hirshfield, and Ian Boyden. While I didn’t get to participate directly, it was really a wonderful program; I plan to revisit the recordings of the sessions that I missed. Panelists mentioned two Chinese poets I was unfamiliar with. Wang Wei and Du Fu lived in China during a period of upheaval, the An Lushan rebellion (755–759) the time of the Tang Dynasty.

When I cannot think of anything to say or to write myself because overwhelmed with feelings of helplessness or sadness or anger or frustration, I write out poems of others. I will be writing out two poems today and share them here.

Spring Prospect

The nation [is] shattered, though mountains and rivers remain.
The city in spring, grass and trees have grown deep.
Feeling the time, even flowers draw tears.
Resenting separation, even birds strain the heart.
Beacon fires unstoppable through the third month,
A letter from home [is] worth ten thousand in gold.
Hairs whitened, fewer for the scratching;
Desires upset no longer hold a hairpin up.

Du Fu

And another written closer to the time period we are in currently.

Let Them Not Say

Let them not say: we did not see it.
We saw.

Let them not say: we did not hear it.
We heard.

Let them not say: they did not taste it.
We ate, we trembled.

Let them not say: it was not spoken, not written.
We spoke,
we witnessed with voices and hands.

Let them not say: they did nothing.
We did not-enough.

Let them say, as they must say something:

A kerosene beauty.
It burned.

Let them say we warmed ourselves by it,
read by its light, praised,
and it burned.

Jane Hirshfield

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Music Cares


I used to be a big watcher of award shows like the Oscars and the Grammys. More recently, I had become impatient with the hype and the glitz and the glamour. This year, though, will be poignant as the Los Angeles areas damaged by wildfires looms large in the background. The shows will go on. As is common when disasters hit, communities come together to support each other. Musicians, performers, and the film and TV community will all recognize and contribute and fundraise in multiple ways.

MusicCares has been around since 1989. In addition to all of the other services offered, they are working to provide disaster relief. Like the musicians who came together for LiveAid in 1985, FarmAid, Katrina Relief, and more (see CNN for a historical account), last night performers mounted an effort to raise funds with FireAid, highlighted on this morning’s Today Show. I remember George Harrison’s concert for Bangladesh in 1971. I contribute monthly to UNICEF to this day.

I am just a fan, but I am a BIG music fan across many genres. This fan girl now wants to share what one of my favorite opera singers sent out on her list today:

I read recently that when disaster strikes the world turns to “1st Responders” to save lives and stop imminent danger. We’ve witnessed incredible acts of heroism most recently in the horrific fires in California. But then humanity necessarily turns to “2nd Responders”(the artists, counselors, support groups) to begin to rebuild lives. One can find different kinds of heroes who give their all to connect to the hearts of people, aiding them as they find their way through unimaginable circumstances. Joyce DiDonato

The final trio from “The Hours” sung by Joyce DiDonato, Renée Fleming and Kelli O’Hara, is nominated and will be performed at the Grammys this year. The song is titled “You are not alone.”

I will be watching the Grammys this year.

For another perspective, check out Ann Powers in NPR Music.